what do i know of holy?

its the next day, and i have yet to articulate my thoughts. there are so many concerns, so many uncertainties. i am finding myself to be somewhat gripped by the paralysis of analysis. tonight at Bible study we split up into prayer groups and the girls and i in my group were talking about how restless we all are. i am not alone. not one of us was feeling peace about anything necessarily. maybe its just that point in the semester, but i think it goes deeper than that. as we prayed to close the night, we all found ourselves begging God to bring our hearts and minds to peace.

God is bigger than our anxieties. He created a universe so large that we cant even measure its vastness. and He created the very atoms and molecules that we are composed of. why are we so naive to think that He cant take care of the anxieties in our lives. how little we know of God, and yet we think we can do this "life thing" so much better than He can.

as we shared and prayed, i couldnt help but be reminded of this song by addison road. its most likely one of my favorite songs ever. i have been wanting to post the lyrics on my blog, and this gives me a good excuse to. i know its annoying when people post song lyric, but please humor me and at least read them. maybe you could meditate on them a little too. they really speak to how i am feeling right now. i know im not alone.

What do i know of Holy - Addison Road.

I made You promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from Heaven
But I talked the whole time
I think I made You too small
I never feared You at all
If You touched my face would I know You?
Looked into my eyes could I behold You?

I guess I thought that I had figured You out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How You were mighty to save
Those were only empty words on a page
Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be
The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees

What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire, are You fury?
Are You sacred, are You beautiful?
What do I know, what do I know of Holy?

What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame?
And a God who gave life it's name?
What do I know of Holy?
Of the One who the angels praise?
All creation knows Your name
On earth and heaven above
What do I know of this love?